Divine visit
07/09/2011 # 12:02 # Impressions - my diary # 33 Comments
I decided to go on a trip to visit my friend, The Past
He lived in the City of Denial
On the corner of Unhealthy and Painful Road
After listening to Apostle Ndobe, I was inspired to take a long walk on a cold winter’s night
To go see how my old friend, The Past, was doing and to ask why he refused to leave me alone
I mean, he kept on threatening my other friend, The Present
And quite frankly I was fed up
I finally arrived at the house and
I knocked on his door
I was feeling quite confident because, look, I go to church every Sunday; I fast, I pray, I’m saved
What does the famous passage from the Bible say?
‘The old things have passed away, new things have come.’
So I’m new, ain’t I?
I was confident that I had nothing to fear because now I am saved
I swear…nothing could have prepared me for who opened the door…
RESENTMENT
He welcomed me with such enthusiasm
Then there came Unforgiveness
Offering me a cup of poison…I mean tea
Anger started a conversation with me, he kept provoking me to say things I honestly didn’t mean to say
I must confess the furniture – the crying, bitterness, illnesses, laying of hands – all felt so comfortable again
I gazed at the family portraits around the lounge
And there they were: Divorce, Depression, Abuse, Abortion, Rejection, Rape – all the cousins
I was intrigued to see who would capture these photos and even frame them and not just deal with them and move on
So I stood up to see who the photographer was…
ME?!
Are you saying that I am responsible?
That I made a choice to keep reminding myself of all these cousins?
You know: Divorce, Depression, Abortion, Abuse, Rejection, Rape
I felt someone tap me on the shoulder – it was Shame
I always tried to run from her but she’d always catch me off guard – in public
She handed me the family album
I flipped through photos and photos of unfilled promises, grudges, broken hearts and emotional wounds
As I got to the end, there was an empty place for one more photo
Betrayal handed me a photo and said this is especially for you
I looked at it and it was a picture of low self-esteem
Maybe if it was 2005, the year before I joined Girls Alive, maybe
In fact, I’m sure I would have been more than honoured to add it in
It’s just that in 2006, at 15, I received a call from my Father
He said He is a Repairer of broken walls; A Restorer of the disgraced
He invited me to come view my future at the Shaft Mines in Nasrec
All I had to do was ride the Let Go bus and get off at the stop of Forgiveness
I would then share space with Joy, Peace and Love
I really liked what I heard so I ended that call
Hugged Resentment, Unforgiveness and Betrayal
Shame didn’t want me to leave so she and Anger did not even wave
Oh well, I told them I had an appointment with Destiny
I was called to gather with Women who chose to live
Women who were Alive at
Woman Alive
Today I am free, I can breathe
I can still go visit my friend, The Past, but he changed addresses
Now he lives in the City of Dealt With
On the corner of I am Healed and Moved On Road
Written and Performed by
2 July 2011
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WOW, i’m speachless, this really brought a tear in my eye.
It reminded me of the life that we as people live and we call ourselves christians, i’ve always asked myself why is it that when we pray we say “forgive us as we forgive”.but we can not forgive.
Thank you for bringing back the light, you go girl
Ertym I read sumin by u, it sends chills dwn my spin n reminds hw blessed n set aprt I am!
- no weapon formed against me shall prosper-
I am proud of the woman you have become, you are this woman because of your past… but your past does not define the woman you are in the present…
you have a good head on your shoulders and the family should expect to be blown away in the future! We love you-God is Good!!!
Keep up with the good work, iam loving it!!
When you do your best, people notice. Looking forward to your next publication.
Keep your pinky in the air!!
A beautiful piece, a reflection of reality.
Nnete ke hore a ke tsebe hore ke reng. I will write a proper comment once ive conjured up the poet in me
very beautiful piece Diva
Oh my goodness Tanya, this is beautiful my word! This is the work of a true writer and i can tell that this is a peace that just flowed from your hands and you most probably read it afterwards and discovered what you wrote… This is from a special place! Spellbound hun.. Amazing!!!Your passion and love for writing can never denied….
“you most probably read it afterwards and discovered what you wrote” it’s as if you were there! I feel from the depth of my heart that I cannot take credit for this one because I re-read it and I take a step back and question if it really is me. Good observation and thanks for your time lady
well articulated.
This is my first time reading any of yo pieces and must say m speechless..for a while der I thought u were prophesying of the daily happenings in our lives,,soo succint yet soo precise and heartfelt.yo vocab is simple yet yo choice of words and word order is powerful. Uv reli grown and matured in yo writing Miss Daku keep inspiring us who r using another media to reach out to others
My sweetheart.
No shem, you finished it, Thank you and congratulations.
Your testimony and your writing is transparent, and true.
I love it, so simple yet so profound.
I love you, so proud of you honey.
dis is beutiful… Touched in so many ways… Ur talented!!!! #tear
Great piece girl, really enjoy reading your work! U got me thinking….. Neway, can’t wait to read u next piece
What a lovely piece Tanya! I love it! You are truly a beautiful writer. LOVE IT!!! Don’t you ever stop writing coz you are blessed!
Love you always,
Mpho
Wowza! I really am speechless. This is one of those that one needs to print on special paper and put up on a wall or a mirror, so everytime I look at My reflections, I’m reminded that dear old friend ‘past’ has been dealt with! Loveit babe… Ur writing is something else.
Ncooooooh man ,this is just too beautiful +tear drops+ eish wow!!!! *BBM crying face* this is WOW ey.
Nice piece “B”relevant realities beautifully painted in an artistic manner. Phb
Just when I think I know, you always seem to get me.
Beautiful.
You never disappoint.
*Clapping*
Astonished, suprised, impressed and proud.
I cannot get over this God ordained piece…I go back to the first time I heard you deliver it – I was entranced! God must be “smiling” over His masterpiece creation. Continue to shine – you do make a difference and you do matter…loads & loads of love and blessings Woman of Destiny!
Amazing piece of work, it really made me stop for a while and look at my own life, and I can confidently say receiving that call, is the best gift ever, hence it changes one’s life and directs it to where there caller wants it to be.
Keep writting u r indeed powerfull through your words & messages..
I`m speechless!!Steer on, steer on,and shine!!
Wow this is so beautiful, i can’t wait to read your next article, please write another article soon…
Wow gal true story I can relate indeed. Keep up the good work I can’t stop reading it hey.
Lovely read. I could tell who wrote it before I saw the name at the end.
Nicely written, I must say it is a phenomenal piece,spirited one!
Five Words…
Aesthetic
Authentic
Epic
Genius
Masterpiece
Tanyi…Each piece you write continues to confirm to me the divinity of your gift. I don’t know many writers who have the ability to encapsulate real life issues in a way that stirs the hearts of her readers and coaxes them to action.
I’ve literally read this piece an undisclosed number of times and I have used kleenex tissues to prove it. I encourage everyone young and old to read this piece and read to their loved once and to spread the gospel, “…for we fight not against the flesh…” but our biggest enemy is what we continue to hold to, our old friend, “the past”.
I didn’t the depth of the comment I last posted when I said I couldn’t wait for your next piece; now I’m really excited.
Write on Tanyi…write on!
Its beautiful i enjoyed reading it…you very good at what you do!
I am overwhelmed every time I read your comments. I am humbled to know that this piece spoke to each one or at least got you thinking. I wrote this and after reading, I discovered a lot about myself too. Getting to a point where the past becomes your friend and not an enemy that rears its ugly head at crucial moments in your life is a process! This process never ends and so I continue to write to record my progress and remind myself where I come from so I am encouraged to stay en route. Thank you all for your time, I truly appreciate this.
More is to follow. Live. Learn. Progress.
having always felt that the most important tense is infact not the future but the past and also the present this piece if writing speakes true in all levels. afterall the future is that one thing that does not actually exist afteall a second after reading this comment the future would have come and gone but the past remains unfortunately the same.Tanyani’s honnest exploration of the past and its constant nag on our present forces one to uncomfortably revisit their own past and have those unpleasent scenes once lived ..but it does offer one the opportunity to visit again the pleasant times that live forever in the pas.I loved it great piece lady
This is a beautiful piece! Wow! For a moment there I though “has this girl been following me my whole life”…….Thank You! Life is about making a difference and you just made one!
Hahaha thank you! Its also reassuring to know that I’m not the only one who has been through something!